"remember... you can go anywhere in the world--to the most beautiful places imaginable--searching for happiness. but in the end, a pretty view is just wallpaper. it's people that matter."
This is exactly what I've been trying to explain to people when they ask me about living in Spain, my adventures, the amazing experiences, my travels.
Walking around a historic city, listening to old Spanish people having intense conversations, swimming in the Mediterranean, meeting new people, learning Spanish, trying new foods and learning about different cultures are such incredible experiences, but part of me always felt a little (and sometimes a lot) sad that people I would have loved to share these experiences with, the views, the beauty, the uniqueness ,weren't with me.
For fear of sounding like this experience didn't matter, that the views were taken in vain, that my friends here aren't important or that I wasn't happy,
I assure you this experience mattered.
It has mattered greatly.
Do I even need to mention all the traveling I was so unbelievably fortunate to do.
And I was/am very happy.
I have made friends I am so grateful for, had so much fun with and now have an excuse to travel all over the US and Europe to visit!
I am a stronger person and so much more confident in myself and my abilities to get through rough times, obstacles and frustrations.
I learned a lot about myself.
My abilities, my limitations, capabilities and a sort of thrill {but sometimes terror} of stepping outside of my comfort zone, how much alone time I like before going crazy, my priorities and the issues I still need to work on.
All that being said, the countdown begins.
One month from today I will head back to my people.
Back to be surrounded by the people that matter most to me.
I have very mixed emotions {accompanied by disbelief and a little bit of nausea} but I am so excited to start new adventures back in California.
With all my memories, souvenirs, photographs, personal growth and a few extra pounds of shoes and clothes I've acquired I will also
come home with a huge new appreciation, love and happiness to be with the people that matter most to me.